April 22, 2024

by Kimberly Hobbs 


Sometimes things happen in life, that you cannot understand, and are unable to control. These times bring more questions, than they do answers. Many of the Saints of old knew this well. They took their heart’s issues to God, pouring them out upon Him, because He knows the fragility of every heart. 

I think of Hannah, who in 1 Samuel 1, couldn’t understand why the blessing of God had fallen upon someone who vexed her every time she went to worship the Lord. This woman rubbed it in Hannah’s face, making her think she was cursed.

“And [Hannah] was in distress of soul, praying to the Lord and weeping bitterly…..And as she continued praying before the Lord, Eli noticed her mouth. Hannah was speaking in her heart; only her lips moved but her voice was not heard. So Eli thought she was drunk. Eli said to her, How long will you be intoxicated? Put wine away from you. But Hannah answered, No, my lord, I am a woman of a sorrowful spirit. I have drunk neither wine nor strong drink, but I was pouring out my soul before the Lord.  Regard not your handmaid as a wicked woman; for out of my great complaint and bitter provocation I have been speaking. Then Eli said, Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant your petition which you have asked of Him.”  (1 SAMUEL 1:10, 12-17) AMPC

Hannah’s soul was perplexed and sorrowful, tossed between questions and vexation, as she poured her anguish out unto the Lord. She had great complaint and bitter provocation deep within her soul. This is different than griping and complaining, it’s the soul’s anguish, beyond words.

Thanks be to God that we have the Holy Spirit, who prays for us in groaning and moaning, when we know not what to pray.

“So too the [Holy] Spirit comes to our aid and bears us up in our weakness; for we do not know what prayer to offer nor how to offer it worthily as we ought, but the Spirit Himself goes to meet our supplication and pleads on our behalf with unspeakable yearnings and groanings too deep for utterance. And He Who searches the hearts of men knows what is in the mind of the [Holy] Spirit [what His intent is] because the Spirit intercedes and pleads [before God] on behalf of the saints according to and in harmony with God’s will.” (ROMANS 8:26-27)

Holy Spirit’s groanings and moaning through your anguish, is for you to do the will of the Father! God knew that Hannah was to bear Samuel, but in order to do this, she had to go through a deeper trial, where it felt as though complete darkness and depression surrounded her. And meanwhile, others were experiencing blessings. 

I’ve been here and I know many of you have as well. What I’ve come to know is that God doesn’t leave us in our darkness; He is with us always! 

I wrote on this extensively in my book “God’s Fire Wall Healing of the Soul, Session 1 The Light.”

Samuel means “God has heard.” 

Please listen, sometimes it takes your soul going through such deep anguish that gets you to the place of the Father’s will. It is here God will hear and answer you, just as He did through Eli to Hannah! 

Hannah means GRACE! 

God’s grace is bigger than your mountain. We see in Zechariah 4:7, that God’s grace shouts at your mountain, making it a plain! PRAISE GOD!

In your darkness wait in hope, let the Holy Spirit bear you up in prayer, and God will bring the Light of His answer to your soul! Hold on, God is doing more than you can see in this present time! 

“But as for me, I will look to the Lord and confident in Him I will keep watch; I will wait with hope and expectancy for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me. Rejoice not against me, O my enemy! When I fall, I shall arise; when I sit in darkness, the Lord shall be a light to me. (Micah 7:7-8)

“With God rests my salvation and my glory; He is my Rock of unyielding strength and impenetrable hardness, and my refuge is in God! Trust in, lean on, rely on, and have confidence in Him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts before Him. God is a refuge for us (a fortress and a high tower). Selah” [pause, and calmly think of that]! (PSALM 62:7-8) AMPC


Psalm 104:2; Psalm 102:2

Amen, and thank you Robin Kirby Gatto for sharing today!